To establish a spiritual connection with the divine is easy when the mind, body, and soul are all willing participants. Even after a sin is committed, the soul will cry out and yearn for you to repent. Your mind sobers up. Your body halts its stupor. You have control over your body.
What happens however, when you’re in the process of sinning and remember there’s 20 minutes left until prayer ends? When you’ve entangled yourself in guaranteeing that God will curse your name by the end of your day; when your soul reminds you that the next thing you do will fulfil God’s promise that he who does such and such a sin is forsaken by God?
It’s a long struggle when the soul is literally fighting against every cell in the body and against every thought, and every desire, and the only thing your mind is focusing on, to tell you:
LEAVE THESE PEOPLE.
LEAVE THIS SIN.
What a horrible ordeal it is for the soul to wrench the body away and clear the mind of its sinful objective. For the soul to scream in pain as the body regains control, for the mind to drift back to its objective. For the soul to fight once again against these baser desires and tear away the human, the shell, from what it’s doing.
I remember a recount of Sheikh Shady from Lakemba, going to the city to pull the Muslim men out of the nightclubs and rip them away from what they’re doing. When I was told this I imagined the men like fish caught on a fishing hook. Either these men would rip the hook out of their mouth and endure the pain, and live another day, or they’d be taken by the hook, run out of breath and slowly let their lifeline die.
Our lifeline is with God. If you help someone keep theirs alive, there will be a lifetime of gratitude; if you choose to keep your own lifeline alive, especially at the time when you’ve been hooked - mentally, physically - it’ll hurt; but repentance will come easy. spiritual death is literally insanely hard to recover from.
If Allah should aid you, no one can overcome you; but if He should forsake you, who is there that can aid you after Him? And upon Allah let the believers rely.